I have to admit and feel very fortunate that my life has not brought on anything or circumstance that has left me with deep sadness, discomfort or other major life event that has rocked my world. I feel as I am writing this, that I need to knock on wood so that I am not jinxing myself.
We watch the movies, read the stores, hear the news and see tragic events all the time and more often than not, it can send chills and bring tears to my eyes.
My biggest fear is losing a very close family member. I’m not saying that my parents and I don’t hash it out sometimes, but I have no idea what I would do without them. I know this to be the same for my husband who is extremely close with his parents. This goes beyond the parents too….anyone in my family. I’m grateful that we have good relationships with all our brothers and sisters (and their spouses) as well as all the nieces and nephews.
Years ago, we did some life planning and documented (with a lawyer) what to do in the even that something happens to one or both of us. That was probably one of the hardest decisions to make (who would get the kids) and a reality check that something could happen (and it can). I am fearful of being alone and not being able to create the life that we have planned out, should something happen to one of both of us.